It might be a strange fear, but it’s a haunting one. It’s a little voice whispering in my ear, “You’re going to have an ordinary life. You’re going to be an average person. You’ll never accomplish anything extraordinary.”
Sometimes this motivates me to take on ridiculously enormous projects just for the adrenaline rush or the gold star. Sometimes it cripples me and I hit the snooze button 10 times in the morning. Acceptance and apathy or rebellion and striving? There really is no positive response to such a fear. Silly pride anyway. What makes any of us think we’re better than ordinary, right?
I was reminded this morning that I have direct access to the Maker of supernovas, dust, blood cells, and redemption. And that multiple copies of a book people die to own rest on my bedside table. If I read that book and do what it says, there is NO way I will have an ordinary life. It might not appear impressive in the world’s eyes, but it will be incredible and daring and dangerous and full of love.
And how is it that I, with this knowledge, still put off time with the only loving and powerful God? Satan wants nothing more than to keep me from prayer and scripture because he knows how much damage an obedient listener can inflict on his kingdom.
An extraordinary life has already been given to me by an extraordinary Lover. I have the keys to everything I need. All I have to do is choose to be an active participant in God’s adventure and marvel at the doors that fly open.
The book of 1 John is rocking my brain right now. WOW.
“The man who says, ‘I know him,’ but does not do what he commands is a liar, and the truth is not in him. But if anyone obeys his word, God’s love is truly made complete in him. This is how we know we are in him: Whoever claims to live in him must walk as Jesus did.”
“How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him. Dear friends, now we are children of God, and what we will be has not yet been made known. But we know that when he appears, we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is.”
“We know that we live in him and he in us, because he has given us of his Spirit. And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Savior of the world. If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the son of God, God lives in him and he in God. And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God and God in him. In this way, love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment, because in this world we are like him. There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.”
Oh my goodness. I can’t copy and paste the whole thing here. Just read the five little chapters and let your jaw drop for a while. Nothing God’s love touches, however small, remains ordinary.