I hate it when I get this honest.
I’m tired of this war. The edges of my sword are getting dull. I don’t want to fight anymore. In fact, I think I gave up the hope of winning a long time ago and that’s why it feels like I’m losing. Maybe it’s because I don’t have my enemy clearly in mind. Maybe it’s because I lost sight of my commander. I’ve been swinging my weapon blindly, injuring myself more than anything.
You, O LORD, keep my lamp burning;
my God turns my darkness into light.
With your help I can advance against a troop;
with my God I can scale a wall.
As for God, his way is perfect;
the word of the LORD is flawless.
He is a shield
for all who take refuge in him.
For who is God besides the LORD ?
And who is the Rock except our God?
It is God who arms me with strength
and makes my way perfect.
He makes my feet like the feet of a deer;
he enables me to stand on the heights.
He trains my hands for battle;
my arms can bend a bow of bronze. -Psalm 18:28-34
Because of Him, I will win. I have already won.
The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain. -1 Cor. 15:56-58